“Some people care too much. I think it's called love.”

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. 

"Pooh?" he whispered.

"Yes, Piglet?"
 
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's hand.

 "I just wanted to be sure of you.”

the sixth

the sixth year. So far, you have already missed
a graduation,
a 21st birthday,
two weddings,
a grandson;

and it pains my heart that you will miss so much more.

Sometimes i wake in the middle of the night, fearing that i have forgotten how you sound, how you feel, how you smell. Sometimes, when things hit rock bottom, i wish so badly you are here to tell me everything is going to be okay. You always make everything right, or rather you give me strength to believe that i can make everything right. I think of you everytime i feel like i can't stand it anymore and all i want is to hide under my covers. I think of how strong you are, that no matter how much adversary you face, you always manage to pull through. I know no amount of praying or hoping will bring you back to me, so all I can do is try to become the person that I know you will be proud of.  And to remember all the little things that you have missed so that the day we meet, i can tell them all, all of it, to you. Pinky promise.