water pls

if you are annoying like fuck (but if you are as awesome as Harvey from Suits who is annoying as fuck but bloody brilliant than fine, u have every right to be annoying) and have nothing exceptional abt you (if there really is, then all i can say is it is extremely well hidden), then srsly stfu. tyvm.

and to think that i used to feel bad that i get preferential treatment all the time. pfft. now that i think abt it,  i deserve every bit of it anyway cuz it is kind of hard to prefer something inferior, no? i think i am too humble in my self-assessment.

go with the fl.ow

Model: Jy

Managed to psycho the bff to be the model of my shoot. I have so much to say that i dont know where to start. I love photography and I know i am no expert but this makes me insanely happy so I am just going to keep doing it. I am kind of trapped in a rather dark place now and photography is keeping my sanity in tact. I have so many new ideas running through my head and i feel like i am on an adrenaline high. i need to sustain this but the massive amount of workload is killing it. god i cant wait for the peak period to be over. As for the management meeting to be held this Friday, I can't say i am too excited because 80% of me thinks that it is going to be terrible news. Whatever it is, i just want December to be here now but yet i dont want 2012 to end yet. Oh the irony.

The nitty gritty

it is bloody depressing when faced with all the horrible mistakes that i make in my work. filling in the wrong box for 2 companies under the same group; getting call from client to inform that deferment of CA on certain items are not allowed (OMG i wanted to just shrivel up and DIE; like what kind of tax advisor am I?!!?); advising something that when i read now i go WTF AM I WRITING. HOW DID IT GET APPROVED. and yes it happened this morning. WTF. So the bulk of the morning was spent salvaging the mistake and trying to sound like it ain't our fault *twiddle fingers*

and with the peak looming ahead, the paranoia seems to have exploded out of control. i am literally nick picking over EVERY DAMN THING. i think about every littlest issue and rethink about it; discuss with my peers; think about it again; bug my peers AGAIN to discuss the same damn thing; read the Act for the umpteenth time; scour the IRAS website the circulars the e-guides. and i go to sleep with all this crammed in and i end up waking up at ridiculously early and feeling anxious. like shit did i miss that out.

i am already looking forward to my last submission alr. le sigh.

Whirling whirling whirling

The random update at 524am.

- Discovered that the dream man do exist in real life. Good looking, loves the wifr and kids, capable at work, good tempered, basically the dream man. Yes he does. Tt lucky bitch. Sigh.

- Jack neo doppleganger spotted at work. Loooool

- Wasabi flavored seaweed is da bomb. And i have a happy stash of it in office. Woots!

- Blood donation drive at work! Time to overcome my fear for needles. And lets hope my blood pressure is high enough. Secretly happy when ppl ask if im even heavy enough to qualify. #insert smug smile.

- y is nicky stalking me to e toilet.

what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok

im falling to pieces

are sudden anxiety attacks even normal? what about burying in work? let it overwhelm, let it take over. finally im going to give in. all the time when i refuse to let it take over and now i am going to open up the floodgates. swept up away in the tsunami.

going with the flow is so much easier than fighting it.

the tokyo diaries 2.0

seafood + carbs = YUMS. I can easily devour three of this.

Poached eggs are my ultimate fav with omelette coming in a close second. If my cholesterol level permits, I will eat eggs for every meal.

Everyone loves dumplings right? Right. And doesn't it make you extra angry when the ratio of skin to filing is 2:1? Yes, I have gotten wantons (i insist wantons belong to the same category but just a shittier version) where the filings are so pathetic that they my as well don't bother to put in the filings. I wanted to punch the hawker. Thin skin thick filings = happy customer.

And desert always make good photos because they are pretty to look at. That is green tea icecream btw.

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Cracked my brains trying to reconcile some figures in office on a lovely Saturday afternoon.  I was bent on reconciling the figure until at 6pm i realised that it can't be done and i packed up and went home. Yeah to my highly exciting Saturday.  The only good thing was I get to have a mini karaoke session at my desk so my poor colleagues had to put up with me singing the same song over and over and over again. Oh yes, we are a hardworking bunch (give us back our pay cut alr damn it!).