aint cool yo

I always thought that after all that dysfunctional crap tt happened, nothing can faze me. I am officially that girl who has seen it all, taken the chill pill and not let things get to me. When work piles up, whats e big deal? Deal with it. The time spent whinning / crying / trying to weasel yr way out of things that should be yrs (death glare to u), my as well spend it on doing your job right?

But then when u start waking up at 3 am 5 am 6 am and start having mini panic attacks, does that mean it has finally gotten to me? The chill pill has run its course? Am i officially stress??? Does sending absolute nonsensical emails to my managers count? or sprouting rubbish to my manager like can i go on leave next week / i pay u $ to help me review comps / lets cease e client now or using my bright pink pen to draw rubbish on my manager's tax act ( cant believe i gt away with that) indicate something along e lines of this girl is gg bonkers?

 As if things can't get worse, the IRAS raises tons of ridiculous queries at this point attaching ridiculous deadlines just because it is time barred. And on top of tt, client's queries which also require research and attention. Not exactly professional to go, sorry we r busy now so can we get back to u in December instead? Times like these where i wish i was incredibly smart so i can work faster and do much more for the clients. Maybe what i need is a brain enhancer and not a chill pill.

On a gossipy note, OMG some ppl are really. I can't even. Doesn't affect me but is more of a 看不过去thing. Congrats u have officially lost all my respect. Not tt u have much of mine to begin with. Pfft.

And i declare bdays as the new depressing day. Can we freeze time or pretend that day doesn't exist? Or shld i pretend tt i don't exist on tt day instead? Okay this is too much for my exploding brain.

cervical vaccine jab. no i still don't like you needles.

I finally got down to doing the jab today. I turned to X and said "Let's go! I think have to do it before our birthdays or else we must pay for it ourselves." 

"Now!?!?"

"Yah now."

So 2 hours later, i has aching left arm. And i still haven't got over my fear of needles. 

When i saw the length of the needle, i muttered "Oh shit" And the doctor was like "har this needle is so small. Like children's needle. Not even the adult needle"

-_-||||  Cannot have phobia of needles ah!?!?!

"So when was your last sexual intercourse?"

Awkward silence.

"Never."

In the presence of the colleague and that few seconds of silence, i did contemplate fibbing my answer. Childish to the max i know but Scorpions got very thin face leh. I am sure everyone has their moments of deciding or making retarded decisions. Right!?!? Right.

shoe crush: charlotte olympia / valentino

are the shoes effing gorgeous or what? Strutting in them makes me feel like i can conquer the world. Us against the world, bitches.

p.s. ZOMG.

I want to book air tickets to Europe NOW.

of shake shack, random chinese food place, momofuku noodle bar and chelsea market

1. I was bent on eating shake shack after reading reviews after reviews raving about the burgers and the shakes. So when we finally got ourselves the legendary burger, it kind of fell short of expectation. Perhaps there was too much hype surrounding it that I kind of expect myself to swoon when i bite into the burger. I expected the flavours to explode in my mouths and unicorns will appear and prance around happily in the background basking in the warm glowy love of the shake shack burger. But none of that happened. In fact i found the burger a bit too salty for my liking. The size of the burger was just nice, not too big and not too small.  But value for money? I don't think so. 

2&3. Chinese food at Chinatown.  We just walked into a random shop and it was surprisingly good. The beef tendon was tender and soup base was delicious. We also ordered guo tie which was big and juicy. Unlike those that have tons of flour and pathetic fillings. DEATH TO LOUSY DUMPLINGS.

4. Ramen at Momofuku noodle bar. One of the worse ramen i have ever eaten. I cannot understand why are ppl queuing at the door before it even opens.  It is just salty and un-delicious. I think I had waaaay better ramen in the most random Japanese ramen place in tokyo. NEVER COMING BACK TO U AGAIN.

5,6,7&8. Lunch at Chelsea Market. I devoured 3/4 of the lobster on my own. YUMS. I dont think i can ever go vegeterian because of seafood. i will die if i can't eat sashimi or grilled squid or lobster for the rest of my life.

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Went to SGH a couple of days back.  Why in the world was the hospital constructed on a hill? Anyway, the smell of hospital is disturbingly familiar. When the smell of over-sanitised floor hit me, a lot of sad memories flashed by. And oh my is the ICU real familiar. At least 3 of my family members have been in ICU. And the days spent camping at the hospital. 

Anyway, i hope my dearest friend will stay strong because that is the only thing one can do. We are not God, we can't perform miracle healings.  The next best thing we can do is to stay strong, for ourselves and for the family. It is not easy but I know she will pull through because we are made of stronger stuff than that.

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I desperately need to go on my holiday because i can't think of anything else to fill the emptiness.

nyc eats - brooklyn flea market

the brutal weather had us running for the shade half the time. The flea was a lot smaller than i imagined it to be. And i expected it to be a bit more... atas? okay i mean how atas can a flea be right? I guess i expected more variety and a larger crowd.  The food was not too bad, a little on the expensive side. The hand-made jewellery were to die for but the price had me going back and forth back and forth. should i buy or should i not buy. Now thinking back, I kind of regret not buying this lovely piece of necklace :( on a brighter note, sweetfineday stall spotted! too bad the girls weren't at the stall.

NYC eats - delicious brunch at Norma's

i dont think i can rant enough abt how delicious the food at Norma's is. Anyone that asked for recommendations for NYC eats would be directed to Norma's.  The wait was around half hour to forty minutes without reservations but it was a well-worth wait. The portions are american-sized (i.e. eat till yr stomach burst portion) and sharing would definitely be recommended unless you want to end up in a food coma. I doubt there is anywhere in SG that could match up to the deliciousness, well maybe Wild Honey which i always find a tad too expensive.

Just did some kind of fusion of kickboxing and muay thai class. Being able to just punch and kick without reservations feels really really good. What a better way to vent all that pent-up frustrations.

dong jing mashedup

i was sorely tempted to post this up wordless because i have nothing to say. or rather there are some things that would be best kept private. the whole of last week had some pretty interesting things happening at work which was regaled with much enthusiasm over yummilicious crossiants and overpriced sandwiches.  the photos which i have taken using my toy camera are kind of.... interesting. it is a fun experience but damn i really need super strong sunlight to take decent photos. which means getting exposed to the dreaded UV rays. i can't stand the sandal-line on my foot. everytime i climb the stairs my line of attention will be instantly drawn to those dreaded lines.  i gotta stop heading out at 12 noon.

the faries dance across disneyland

the cheesy/asian-y pose of me cracks me up. Not just one but double peace sign. omg what in the world am i thinking?